“Reconnoiter” I ate the vegetable So where’s the happy chemical I ran the whole mile So why am I not smiling I got the components But I don’t got serotonin So I take my little potion To keep in check with my emotions And I Pressed my laundry Thought I could get myself clean Drag my body through the dryer But it sticks to me like acarine So I willow in my filth With all this blood on my hands So I take my little potion To keep in check with my emotions Been drinking water Swimming in it like an otter But It’s wasted out in tears When I marathon Harry Potter Cuz I don’t got nothing better Than to sit around and wallow I go to take my little potion But can’t bring myself to swallow My brains betrayed me But my heart is loyal Where my body fails me My heart reconnoiter I ate the vegetable So we’re the happy chemical I walked around the neighborhood And saw so many people With their heads stuck in a salad Using teardrops as a dressing Guess we’re all chasing happiness Running from the same depression Got the running shoes from daddy Never told me how he felt Runners body from my momma Never taught me to eat well got this runners fear from college Dark streets scare me to death But I’m running after dark Cuz the fears all I got left And my laces are untying As I finish up my lap When I fall instead of crying I just sit there and laugh Because my knees are weak from trying And I can’t catch my breath I waited too long to care about me It’s my punishment My brains betrayed me But my heart is loyal Where my body fails me My heart reconnoiter One day I’ll find someone just as broken as me And we will fix our ailing joints and work on each other’s bodies And we will feel the rays of sun on our face warm and fine And with our hands intertwined we’re gonna cross that finish line They say it’s not a sprint that it’s a marathon But they’re wrong It’s a fucking hell of a treadmill we’re on It’s unlimited The limit listed on the inclines wrong it always go up And it will never stop Until you stop I won’t stop My body’s bones are crying asking if we can sit down My lungs they think I’m dying asking where there’s air to be found And my sneakers got the tear but not the wear they outta have So imma push forward on shaky legs to get through this last lap And imma eat that avocado toast And sleep in the whole seven No more stress-in: take a jog And drink that water with the lemon It’s a process with progression It’s precision not possession It’s counseling not concession It’s expression that’s egression Not aggression: Please, I’m done with that Only got time for the pH kinda fat And when I’m smiling: heart, body, brain, and soul I’m gonna set a new course to start look for you.

“Too broke to look for love” You say that your coming home You say that you need some time on your own You say your better off alone You say you don’t got the time But you don’t say what’s on your mind You say we’ll work out; you lying Cuz we don’t talk We just touch And we both no it’s not enough But we’re too busy being broke to look for love And we don’t smile We just smoke Cuz we cannot afford hope so We just settle cuz we’re too broke to look for love I say that I’m going out I say that you should go sleep on the couch I don’t say I got some doubts I say you don’t kiss me nicely I say you don’t give me nice things I say I understand And I think if we had the money That maybe then we’d have the loving But we’re too different And we are too stubborn To accept that we are not meant for each other Cuz we don’t talk We just touch And we both no it’s not enough But we’re too busy being broke to look for love And we don’t smile We just smoke Cuz we cannot afford hope so We just settle cuz we’re too broke to look for love And I’m alone in your arms We’re together but not together We’re tethered but not forever And I’m alone in your arms But we don’t know each other enough To notice any of the alarms Cuz we don’t talk We just touch And we both no it’s not enough But we’re too busy being broke to look for love And we don’t smile We just smoke Cuz we cannot afford hope so We just settle cuz we’re too broke to look for love

“The Ex- Files” I know I’m not alone I know I’m not the only soul who wants to believe there’s more I know I’m not alone I know I’m not the only soul who wants to believe I track the Stars across the galaxies Gallifrey was never just a fiction Fixed to me I believe I believe in all the mysteries Misty me Missed the me that believe in you You and all your big conspiracies See I got that complexity See you got a fallacy Falsely tell me you don’t love That you don’t love me I know big foot is real because I dated you I hated you Making me feel like I made you up When I made up with you Texting me all night keeping it cryptic You cryptid Disappearing when I ask for proof your existence Then say that you want us to go the distance The difference is that I’m done believing all your bullshit Bullshit! You’re Stopping on my heart like you're a yeti Walking all over me like I’m the Serengeti Now I’m petty: You’re so pretty that will only get so far into my panties So now your just another ex in the file far from empty I know I'm not alone I know I'm not the only one who wants to believe The truth is out there And I’m a find it You were just a Mothman looking for a light and I was just a Jersey Devil looking for some trouble Now we’re just water under all the bridge rubble Rebel with a cause you were addictive Stumble in the dark into your wings Yeah I felt lifted But you were just a harbinger of jealously vindictive Always wanting to keep all the love that I was given Yeah I was a victim Fell right in your sights I was afflicted Seeing you in my dreams at night Boy you were wicked Lips so sweet but with a bite A moth to a flame but the flame was a gaslight Now I Look both ways before I cross the river On the breeze when I walk I say your name when I get shivers And you’d figure that after all this time I would learn That it’s not enough to get over the bridges you’ve burned I’m still hurt My heart is getting heavy Thought that by now I would know not the get messy But you were just another work of fiction in my memory And now your just another ex in the file far from empty I want to believe that your out there Are you out there Are you out there I want to believe that you are out there Is someone out there For me I track the the waves across the sea See that there’s a pattern please Tell me I’m not crazy when I look into the depths of what I think is true beauty New to me On the green I kiss the water just to feel her lips so sweet She was a monster in the sheets On the streets People don't think that she’s with me Legs long as her neck I was her shorty Shortly we saw the storm coming on the breeze So we agree’d to secrecy We’d kept it under loch and key Oh, But nothing this good last forever I could only barley tread water remember And she wanted to take me deep and I felt the pressure we decided to swim our separate ways however every now and then I think of my girl Nessy Maybe in a few more years i’ll finally be ready But until then I’ll keep the doggie paddle going steady And she will be another ex in the file far from empty

“Janus” Don’t shit where you eat And don’t dare speak that shit Keep my name out your mouth Or you're bout to get hit See I Thought we were tight NowI’m cutting you loose Like a noose round my neck Did not know I was blue 'Til you took my breathe away When I found the truth Left me speechless And I make my money from speaking I don’t play my dollars You got cash to burn You like to play with matches Until you get hurt I talk behind your back because you gotta another face I call him Janus cuz he’s speaks out his anus most the days I’d call you Brutus but your bruising don’t graze my rib cage I am no Caesar I’m the motherfucking Cleopatra babe You’re a big fish circling the drain inside your small pond Talking to you got my head spin like I’m watching ping-pong Ring it Ding dong 'cuz I’m gonna kill you witch Bitch Call me King Kong Imma snatch your chick I’m Goliath your just David throwing all your sticks and stones Fe-fi-fo-fum I'm gonna crush up all your bones Sell it on the street just like I know you sold your soul Could be NASA you just NASTY Never come for my throne You a peasant You a pest You a pleeb You a mess You a stress I’mma press out A smudge imma wipe out A footnote imma white out A football: imma kick you out Charlie Brown I talk behind your back because you got a face like Quirrell Hide your mask behind your mind I see you’re lies: I'm casting lumos It’s distressing that I let you in this deep: cuz you’re a muggle I should call the pound: bitches like you deserve a muzzle Your Napoleon on your high horse without it you’re an inch Talking to you: head spin like I’m watching quidditch Quit it Ding dong cuz imma kill you witch Bitch Call me King Kong Imma snatch your chick You a rabbit imma skin I’ll make you into a beret Jumping to conclusions scurrying to run away I trusted you Busted with you Adjusted with you Discussed with you Now I’m disgusted with you Musket’s off the wall Just give me one good reason Not to open fire up and call it “Rabbit season” No? You at a loss for words That’s not what heard That’s not the second or third time I’ve given you a pass Shoulda thrown you out on your ass I’m too forgiving For giving you a chance to face facts The olive branch is made of glass I’ll cut you with the thorns Watch your reflection crack As Judas finally grows his horns big bitch carry your sins This cross I gotta Bare I’m a goddess You are god-less You a gossip with no prayers You thought you’d stake me to the fire Bitch I’m Targaryen A Theatrical threat: thespian Spit Shakespearean I’ll cut you out Caesarian Another corpse I’m burying Say hi to Charion ferrying Two-face and worthless Cent-ian Oh? Are you Gemini? Cuz you could have fooled me Bitch. I talk behind your back because you gotta another face I call him Janus cuz he’s speaks out of anus most the days I’d call you Brutus but your bruising don’t graze my rib cage I am no Caesar I’m the motherfucking Cleopatra babe You’re just a big fish circling the drain inside your small pond Talking to you got my head spin like I’m watching ping-pong Ring it Ding dong because I’m gonna kill you witch Bitch Call me King Kong Cuz I don’t fuck with your shit

“NRD GRL” So I saw your profile.... you’re a nerd? But you’re a girl? You just like DnD because of your boyfriend, right?... Do you play video games? But real video games, you know... like Smash Bros? What about comics? Can you even name all the robins?” Bitch Dick Greyson You should know him Cuz you acting like his name Agent 37 left to go become Nightwing Jason Todd got a red hood from a crow-bar to the face Tim drakes my favorite Fuck Damian Wayne Duke Thomas made a stunt Gordon tried to do his best Steph Brown and Carrie Kelley They’re my peanut butter jelly Harley Quinn once wore the outfit Guess I’ll make it a cosplay You’ll comment that it’s fake While misspelling her name And yeah I play games On the pc and the table Get my sushi to go: I take it home: my house betrayal This is my dominion your my minion You a munchkin Go settle in Catan I’ll roll a seven: Steal your lunch I’m a legend out your league You ain’t fit to lick my crocs The only way you’re on my team Is if it’s gambling Loot box Okay, so you’ve read a Wikipedia page: "congrats". But what about anime? Cuz. I love anime...I really just want to-move to Japan. They’re culture is just so unique...do you know I speak Japanese? You’re an otaku with a complex I’m a girl that gets to have sex You’re no Deku you’re a Mineta Call me best girl: Imma beat ya I’ll go psycho 100 Yandere Hunter X Hunted Form Voltron cuz I’m a gundam I got One Piece: it’s a shot gun I’m waifu material You are wafer material I’m a goddess ethereal Your a problem: venereal Im a magical girl Beautiful a Miyazaki You a badly rendered flash game Produced from Milwaukee I’ll defeat you in One Punch While not give out one fuck Eat it up like its bac-Choi See you later, space cowboy I’m fully realized female Like I came from Full-Metal I’m the Ghost in the Shell Cuz this is my Bizarre Adventure Just sayin I’m super Sayain I ain’t playin I’m a Kill La Kill a killer Fighting evil I’m a sailor And by daylight I’m a winner So tight: I got no filler You’re crawling Caterpillar I’m RWBY your JNPR Imma write you a death note I’m Utuna I’m cut throat Your outdated: Code Geass see you on tinder? Psycho-Pass NRD GRL CUZ THERES NO U IN NERD GIRL (4x) Oh! You’ve unlocked the last level I’m all boss and no bitch So hard call me the water temple Worship me like I’m Basette Cuz I’m thick call me Bowsette If you talk like I’m Toadette Forget about you like a Neopet No sweat I’m ready for the next challenger I go through these bros likes days on a calendar I eat it up So whip up a new Bach of bachelors Always trying take me out just like my name is Excalibur My ass stacks like Tetris Always on the up and up Need a man like pac-man Wake Waka: bubble butt Because I got more curves than the rainbow road And when I walk by the geeks go “beep beep: wide load” But if you want to know the way to my heart? Up up down down left right left right B A start I’m just playing, But ain't that what you want me to do? I’m not a fake: so don’t complain when I’m nerdier than you.

Poltergeist” I ran into your ghost today And I didn’t feel haunted. I walked right through you Cuz talking to you would be morbid. You’ve been dead for months That’s what I told my parents. Sometimes they call a seance Talking about you like they clairvoyant. But you weren’t nice to me You were a vice to me Now you’re just a poltergeist to me. You weren’t nice to me But I hope that you can find your peace. I ran into your ghost today And I didn’t feel haunted. You were a curse to me But now it feels lifted. I Got rid of your all shirts And I saged the apartment. Took down all your pictures Cleaned your cologne out of the carpet. Cuz you weren’t nice to me You were a vice to me Now you’re just a poltergeist to me. You weren’t nice to me But I hope that you can find your peace. Please Tell me you’ve moved on Cuz I want to move on Without feeling you there. Please Tell me you’ve moved on Cuz I keep Letting you possess my every waking thought. When it’s over It’s over Our loves dead and gone I don't want to feel it on my skin Or hear it in our song Stop bring up the good times I put them all to bed But in my head I got the picture book spread. I put up the white flag I gave in When I saw your red ones in your grin Now I got a black one On my skin From holding myself back from going back again And no we can’t be friends I gotta have some self respect Can’t make amends For everything that you have wrecked I just got cleansed And you got a bad reputation You can’t haunt this house I’m making stronger foundations So you can go blow up my phone Sorry, the caller you want just isn’t home Cuz I just want a love that is peaceful I’m not a Joel-Osmond I don’t see dead people I think that you at evil Or just a little selfish Put you on my allergies Avoid you like shellfish Cuz in this world you’ve caused me to much strife Maybe you can try again in the afterlife You weren’t nice to me You were a vice to me Now you’re just a poltergeist to me. You weren’t nice to me You were a vice to me Now you’re just a poltergeist to me. You weren’t nice to me But I hope that you can find your peace.

“Pillow princess” All the knights Never did me right Never stayed the night Never thought to write Towers tall I built all these walls Hoping no man could Climb Pillow forts Are pillow castles I could be your pillow damsel Save me save me Pillow fights With Demi-dragons Pillow talk-in Chivalry is dead That’s what she said: She said You're my pillow princess And I’m your plaidinin I got my U-haul steed we can ran away in Just lay your head down on my chest I’ll take care of the rest I’ll be your queen If you’ll let me All the knights Never looked so fine With her sword by her side Hair cut short With that lip gloss sport She knows just the flavor I like Pillow forts Are pillow castles I could be your pillow damsel Save me save me Pillow fights With Demi-dragons Pillow talking Chivalry is dead That’s what I said: Cuz I’m your pillow princess your my plaidinin you got your U-haul steed we can ran away in I’ll lay my head down on your chest You take care of the rest Cuz your my queen It’s my happy ending We have a happy ending Cuz we ain’t ever ending In this happy ever after After everything we been through Fought My way through hell to see you Cuz my savior needs some saving too Just lay your head down on my chest Let me take care of the rest Lay your head down on this bed Give you true love kisses you won’t forget You're my pillow princess And I’m your plaidinin I got my -uhaul steed we can ran away in Just lay your head down on my chest I’ll take care of the rest I’ll be your queen If you’ll let me Let me Let me (oh) Let me Let me Let me Let me Let me (oh) Let me Let me Let me

"A Cold Day In July” It’ll be a cold day in July When I get the chance to ever call you mine It’ll be a cold day in July When I become your type I guess you don’t like the girls who speak their mind Don’t like the girls that sip the wine I guess you got a death wish Cuz you know that thick thighs save lives You must be blind or crazy To pass me up as your baby So it will be a cold day The next time That I say your name It’ll be a cold day in July When you get another shot to be my guy Better yet when I see pigs fly Will be the day that I say come on by See I don’t got time for bullshit You blew it Blew all of that cash on your new chick New kicks She looks good in them walking away Shoulda called you a sucker: daddy’s sugar never stays And I got a sweet tooth I dream of new jimmy choos And a new jimmy too better looker than you Rich in the wallet in the mind in the bed You can’t afford a bad bitch That’s why you settle for less Oh it’ll be a cold day in July When you ever get the pleasure of hearing me calling you mine Oh it’ll be a cold day in July When I give you a second, and a third, and a fourth, and I lost count amount of try’s I got a heart a gold and it is malleable You always had excuses: you were fallible And now your crawling in my DM’s: I ain’t gullible You wanna talk? You better pay! Cuz my times valuable. You ain’t as funny as you think: but boy you are laughable: To think you’d play me like a fiddle: bitch this ain’t no musical But like a Hannibal cannibal, Eat it up like a animal, Tears taste so tasty to tear into you; cuz you testy Guess that you got hungry Cuz you after this snack said I should be on a diet I ain’t calling you back And I can see your tummy rumble And your heart start to crack I guess I didn’t need to sit on you To hear your body snap And I clap black to reality Where you won’t get with this Don’t tell me you don’t want me: then go hit up pics And Your stories got more holes than that Munster and Swiss it’s so yummy to see it: I eat it up with a ritz It’ll be a cold day in July It’s be a snow storm in the summer When I ever call you my lover Oh it’ll be a cold day in July It’ll be a snow storm in the summer When I ever call you Don’t want no chubby chaser I just want Chubby Chase Give me a fats Domino That buys me domino’s, Kay? You got be *NSYNC with me Like Joey Fatone, for days: Or I’ll leave you for guy Fierri Go to Flavortown: yeee: You wanna be my dom Then go and get me subway Got go hard like Gordon Ramsay Flip me: like Bobby Flay Take me out on an adventure Like Anthony Bourdain And I’ll let you taste my cookies Call me a Rachael Ray! But if you wanna take me out Make sure you can pay Cuz it takes a lot of money To look this good all day And if I gave it for free I’d never be free to hang Like they say, A bigger buck get you a better bang cuz My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And I’m like: do you got a credit card Damn right: i put a tax on the charge Cuz this lil’ shake is thicker than yours (3x) Oh Oh OHHHHHH Oh it’ll be a cold day in July——- But climate change is real so who knows?

“Pride” I’m on the L train Took the L cause of the rain The dew drops sticking to my face I took an L today And thank god for the rain Cuz I can’t let them see me crying again I’ve always been too soft The first to love The last thought But what’s the point of life if you’re just gonna go and give up But I don't practice what i preach Cuz when I turn to touch my teeth The rain washes away the rainbow on my cheek I see the beads on the ground Rumble to the track I see the stickers ripped off the shirts The flags in backpacks it’s great to be yourself Out in the crowd in the dome But it’s hard to be yourself When you can’t be yourself at home It took me hours to pick out the getup That I would wear I went digging to the back to find that bow for my hair But on the train back to reality The closet waiting for me These clothes loose their magic to protect me And I look at a boy Wipe off the lipstick He spent 20 minutes matching it to his outfit And the girl down the street Let’s her hand drop for mine I guess we’ll see each-other In another lifetime Lifetime movies aren’t as sad As the L train from pride A cart of rainbow beacons flickering out in the florescent lights But I don’t want to fade out tonight Nothing breaks my heart Like the L train from pride A cart of rainbow beacons flickering out in the florescent lights But I don’t want to dim my colors tonight not now not ever I’m on the L train Another stop another step closer to hiding again Pick up the people Get moving Cuz New York City never has time to stop Improving I’m choosing to let this rain deep into my roots Cuz it’s June and I’m blooming all these petals of truth I’m only human so I make a lot of mistakes But being proud of myself will never be on again So I cross the crowded cart to the boy on the bench I take my lipstick out my pocket see joy on his breathe And his smile’s painted pink when we’re done I don’t feel numb As the girl across, crosses to me brushes my thumb And I feel dumb for think that red was never my shade Now I feel loved in the healing orange yellow sunlight rays It’s in my nature: to be green as the grass that I paint next to The turquoise water under the bridge: let me rephrase I’m just an indigo girl: ready to fight for some serenity I got a violet spirit: it’s a part of my identity And this guys got a destiny: he’s trying to get to desperately our job as a community to live up to these legacies Cuz nothing breaks my heart Like the L train from pride A cart of rainbow beacons flickering out in the florescent lights But He wont let you put him back in his prism tonight Nothing breaks my heart Like the L train from pride A cart of rainbow beacons flickering out in the florescent lights No we won’t won’t let you dim our colors tonight not now not ever If She’s the L He’s the G I’m the B She’s the T We the Q They The I And the A With the plus size Plus I: know there’s more to explore outside the alphabet Gender isn’t real: sexuality is infinite In the fit of the grand scheme I don’t see why we fight Because Our only sin was calling our coming out a “pride” My heart beats the same as yours: Who cares who it beats for? Who cares who it beats for? You’ve beaten and you’ve broken and you’ve burned your mark in history Our herstory is scared with your cruelty Do you really think we don’t deserve to celebrate our survival Sometimes it feels like we keep running into a stonewall Never forget The first pride was a riot We can go back to that if you want to disrespect our rights and We can die for this country once finally let us live in it So yes I am proud of the people who defy it The act of existence is rebellion The act of loving yourself is insurrection Correction The act of excepting yourself is freedom It’s the reason for the season: and yes I believe em’ The L train is eden For Adam Eve and Steve and Susan The L train is inclusion The L train’s the conclusion That I’ve come to when we let our colors shine The L train is love And the L train is mine You can’t take my pride You can’t snatch her crown You can’t clock his gown You can’t make them frown You can’t touch my love You can’t hold them down You can’t keep us out And you can’t stop me now You can’t take my pride You can’t snatch her crown You can’t clock his gown You can’t make them frown You can’t touch my love You can’t hold them down You can’t keep us out And you can’t stop me now